It amazes me that people don't believe food addiction is real. I struggle DAILY and obviously by my current weight I have been losing the battle. I was trying to do it on my own. And I don't mean without support of friends, I have amazing supportive friends in my life. I mean with giving it over to God. And really giving it to him. I have a habit of giving it to him and then taking it back.
Addiction: My addiction to food began because alcohol and drug addictions are not socially acceptable and I would disappoint people if I did that. (Not saying I didn't do either just saying using them daily wasn't an option for me) See I am a people pleaser who wants everyone to like me. And I want everyone around me to be happy. While the whole time sacrificing my own happiness. In return comforting myself with a threesome (Me, Ben and Jerry ice-cream is my favorite binge item)
Depression: I don't know what causes depression. But for as long as I can remember I have battled with that also. I can remember in grade school coming home crying and singing the nobody likes me everybody hates me I think I'll eat a worm song. I still feel that way, I just don't sing the song anymore. And I know that this is not true. I have AMAZING friends and lots of them.
Self Esteem: Well obviously if I feel no one likes me it's because I have no self esteem.
So these are my struggles. This blog is to help me work through my struggles. I decided this past Sunday (with the help of a very honest friend) that I want to overcome my struggles. I want to be healthy and happy. And this time I am turning to God for help!! I may have to give it to him everyday several times a day. But I can and will OVERCOME!!!
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