Celebrate Recovery

I wrote this last week and didn't realize it was saved not published..

We all have a hurt, habit or hang up or two. The question is do yours effect your life in a negative way. Mine do!!! The self esteem issue and depression cause me to negative, weepy, and to hide from reality. And the food addiction causes me to gain mass amounts of weight and in turn risk health issues. I have diabetes and my body hurts all the time.
I decided to start attending Celebrate Recovery at GracePointe Nazarene (the best church ever). I stopped going for a little while cause I wasn't controlling my eating issues. I have since started going again recently. And this past Monday Pastor Doug asked me to read the 8 Principles. I said yes and then during worship I kept praying about it. Because reading the principles meant introducing myself and admitting my faults. I walk up front take the microphone and deep breath........ Hi my name is Carol, I am a grateful believer of Jesus Christ who suffers from depression, self esteem issues and.... food addiction. I have no trouble telling people of the first two. The food addiction on the other hand is quite apparent looking at me but I don't like to talk about it.
I am constantly on a "diet" and my weight yo yo's up and down depending on my emotional state of mind. I am choosing happiness!! I am choosing to give it up to God and letting go of it!! NO MORE TAKE BACKS!!!